New year 2010

He would stay or not he may leave out for this year, watching T.V patrol in tfc, vigilantly following the update of the vulcan mayon it was a bit relief to know that the mayon vulcan does not erupted on new years day.the new years full moon another sign of times fortold maybe who knows that through all our 2009 dramatic, tragic event has a hope for the future what may takes. i don't like to tell more about the pass 2009.

My wishess, prayers and hopes for 2010:

1.Recovery of universal economy crisis

2.No more h1n1 wish this will gone.

3.prayers for all people who suffer from natural disaster.

4.hopes for the green environment, co2 cut emmission.

5. peace! wishing less wars

6.happiness for goodhealth

Merry Or Nuts

Ho ho ho ho...thankyou tante marilou and uncle jan from norway for the 50 euro xmas gift!




Good food for simple christmas dinner!




Gift to share.....




First baby christmas joy's...we're happy together.




Baby footmarking...







I think all of you enjoy the christmas that is pass a day ago.for me, living more than 10 years here in holland where I reside i feel nothing a Merry christmas here but only eating a lot of Nuts specially in the midnight feest after christmas dinner and watching t.v.It was a graveyard christmas cold and warm by a fireplace inside the house we don't have a real christmas song.unlike in germany they have weihnachten and here nothing to hear around even in the shopping mall, our neighboor is quite asleep as owl.eventhough i filled the christmas tree of many wrap gifts for family and friends hanging theirs christmas card that i recieved is somewhat missing behind my head. I watch T.F.C channel wowowee and ASAP it was a bit fancy fun to watch to forget the lonelyness that i felt these holidays. As I may say it was really miserable feeling trying to be happy every year shopping what you like to be happy are not really enough. i feel this feeling that i'm already use to live in europe for long time. we laugh, we eat delicous food, we went to parties for friends , we make friends christmas exchanging gift but everything is like a temporary happiness. why i feel this all? i really don't know. but if you live longer abroad maybe you will understand my feeling i guess! sabi nila at itóy totoo na masmasarap ang PASKO sa atin.(they said, the real true spirit of christmas is where you really come from). even a little food preparation when the family are there beside you , you feel content and happy.Anyways, we have a different happiness here but until there to the point. did you understand what i mean?

Yes! we have a nice dinner for four...
and i have a good chitchat to my daughter and hubby to tell that philippines is the jollies christmas ever i can recall from the last visit with a family. then i become silent and eat a lot of fruit salad and watch T.F.C again!

Only the T.F.C ( television filipino channel )bring me a little near to home.I watch charice pepengco who sang gracefully in Asap and wowowee christmas special edition.little chrildren i love to watch them sing carols it was unforgetable to remenisce my childhood and even to my teenage life.surely, it wouldn't turn back time anymore, but to enjoy the moment.

the 12 midnight of christmas we sat in the couch sitting stick together like rice to keep warm each other and watching a lot of FILMs and movies. eatng nuts drinking a lot of juices. this is it! and after sleep quitely.

Today the 26 of december 2009, we are invited to a filipina friend we gonna go there for a little party gathering and i'm ready for my gifts to share for the children.

Photo well be published later...

HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS! PRAY FOR EVERYONE ! WISHESS LOVE-PEACE-GOODHEALTH

Personal Christmas Card

Christmas card sending become my tradition since i was in highschool. i just remember my grandpa give 10 pesos it was long years ago that christmas card was very cheap as of 50 cent. i bought christmas card for what written in the list. first for my family and extended family. and some of the christmascard was selfmade from colored paper. it was simple and fun. digital in my younger lifetime is not yet popular , unlike today techonologie will teach you how to make for 123 steps and everything is done! so simple.iniisip ko kahit di man ako makatangap pabalik at least masaya ang pakiramdam ko na tumatangap sila sa christmascard ko.(i'm thinking even though i can't recieved back i have a feeling to be happy that i send.)yon lang! that's it!

Christmas card sending for me are more personal not only you recieved them but you can read that everything of them is alright that they are so blessed in life that until then they are alive and overcome the furios life and survival.

Christmas digital wasn't bad! but for me i prefer real christmas card. I remember my lola frustosa love to keep christmascard in the closet and read them the whole year. sounds it was crazy but she told me she can keep the vibrant memory and she believe that if the christmascard was keep she think it gives her courage and hopes and happiness for long years to endure.

In my times i cut and resused the christmascard and paste it to the colored paper and send them during christmas holidays.

how about you? do you still send traditional christmas card?

Joy of our heart

Above photo is a 3 months old little darling girl no other than our lovebable daughter Lianna.God bless with her and onward of 2010 and many years comes.



9 months to go and lian will turning 1 year, but for now, we're celebrating her 3 months old counting days, and of course the months. for us ,not only her natal day is important but here daily life of days and months that passes by, we counted her goodhealth as well. so ,stick to comeback here in my blog to witness the changes of lians life for thick and thin of her lifes journey, i enjoy her company rocking in my arms.i love her so much. december 19,2009 marks the most memorable months of my baby Lian. she's getting strong,happy talkative , playful and she start staring all bright colors in our living room . foremost she love to play her hands.she was our darling in our home.yesterday we're at rosie house "my auntie" to celebrate her big 3 months day with xmas family gathering. it wasn't big and of cours family exclusive meaning we're just a few. we have so much fun and jolly exchanging gifts of course lian got her nijntje winter jacket denim thankyou tante precy.

Lian is totally the joy of our heart!

Winter Cribble

I don't have long story to blog today. everyone seems so busy for doing their own things to do shopping, planning for christmas adventure or goin holiday in the winterland sking in Alps or having a family reunion with the family I guess you are right! it was last year of 2003 i was in my place CEBU CITY and since the last vacation i never been in philippines anymore. it was not a reasons that i can't have a vacation it's a reason that if i had enough saving it always out of budget.for many turbulent years of depression of winter cold i thought i escape holidays and spend short holidays inside europe traveling to ravensburg until switzerland.I realized after many years passed , I been different! i become a boring look a like old maid , it seems my fantasy of planning wonderful things are changing.i become old and my mind think backward, unlikely my plan for holiday is hard to do. i just hopping!

I said to my friend whom i chitchated most of the time, i wanted to going home what i mean is; i want a vacation! to breath from lonelyness. An immigrant like me realizing the reality of living abroad is very hard. no matter how friendly you are to adjust the caucasian way of life or no matter how competent you are to them or no matter how you work hard to earn for living or no matter how happy you are to enjoy the luxurious parties and spending a lot for shopping no matter how you enjoy the company of fellowmen there is something MISSING!!! why? this is my question and it always stuck in my head. no matter i enjoy the wonderful scenery of other places my mind was miles away and i'm thinking "WHERE I COME FROM THAT IS THE BEST PLACE"

These holiday seasons i start missing my extended family's ..i said, extended family, because in my family tree of( TORRES) whe're not huge anymore. some of them are already gone(died) and the memory that is only alive.of course my wishess and prayers is always with them not only for the died but for the living.pretending to be happy all the time and trying to disguishing others to be glad is easy.of course when your in the internet world you play the rules of the dummies as they say... be happy if you are not! be fruitful even you are not!be creative even you are a lazy bumbs...and laughing out loud like no one heard. my thought are not for these negativeness hormonal feeling of cold but i bring you courage that you are stronger person than me.

this year was my dissaster and counted blessed years, if you know my situation.the ups and down i fought to death and drag my self to wake up and brace my self to never loss hope but to learn the mistakes into good idea that this is it! Life is all about.

Anyways, my friend my readears pay no much attention to my blog.I wish you all well, and have a great life to foretell others to encouraged.

This year weither a year of failures or crisis we never lost hope, we pray, we trust god! no matter what.

I wish you abundantly of blessing, a good spirit of joy and a tidings of love. merry christmas to all. god bless your kids, your wife, your husband! and your loveones.